Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Collide

"Collide"-Howie Day

The dawn is breaking

A light shining through

You're barely waking

And I'm tangled up in you

Yeah

I'm open, you're closed

Where I follow, you'll go

I worry I won't see your face

Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the wrong words seem to rhyme

Out of the doubt that fills my mind

I somehow find

You and I collide

I'm quiet you know

Monday, May 30, 2005

Quando, Quando, Quando

Michael Buble - Quando, Quando, Quando
Tell me when will you be mine
Tell me quando quando quando
We can share a love devine
Please don't make me wait again

When will you say yes to me
Tell me quando quando quando
You mean happiness to me
Oh my lover tell me when

Every moments a day
Every day seems a lifetime
Let me show you the way
To a joy beyond compare

I can't wait a moment more
Tell me quando quando quando
Say its me that you adore
And then darling tell me when

Every moments a day
Every day seems a lifetime
Let me show you the way
To a joy beyond compare

I can't wait a moment more
Tell me quando quando quando
Say its me that you adore
And then darling tell me when

Whoa lover tell me when
Oh darling tell me when
Oh come on tell me when
Yea tell me when

#Quando is "WHEN" in Spanish#

Monday, May 16, 2005

A Letter to Koala Bear

Dear Koala Bear,

I'm writing this while realizing the fact that you would never come across this letter or perhaps you wouldn't even know it's written to you if by that tiny chance you're reading this now.

This is my confession, a declaration of my feelings for you. I can't remember when I fell in love with you. All I could remember was I fell for your warm and sincere smile. And yes, I am crazy. You were so right about that. How can I fall for someone by means of a smile? It wasn't just that, you're like a chest hidden in the dark corner of an attic. Not knowing what's in it. Somehow, I managed to open the chest and look what's inside. You know what? I found treasures! You, like your smile are so warm and sincere. Not only that, I found the heart of gold.

However, till this day, I've never found the key to your heart. Maybe I lost it along the way, or maybe it's just the wrong key that I'm holding, perhaps there never was one in the first place. This door was never intended to be open for me. There were a few times when I felt you open the door for me. But when I tried to walk through it, I end up having it slammed in my face. It's really painful. Yes, I realize that I would never be the one for you. I'm never the girl who would love God as much as you do, never the one who love and help other people like you do. When I look at myself, I see flaws. My mere existence was only a burden. But I've tried and I've changed. But then again, I would never be perfect. I'm not condemning myself. It's a fact that I have to accept. Isn't this how life's supposed to be?

Please don't ask me what I see in you. I cannot tell you because it's just the feelings inside which is very difficult to describe. Maybe you've actually experienced it before, or maybe not. And if you didn't know this, it's not easy to love someone who doesn't love you. At times I just feel like I couldn't give anymore but seeing you and your smile just kept me going. I'm not asking for anything in return, so please do not give me the "I owe you a lot" line ever again. It hurts to hear that from you.

I miss you. I miss your smile. I miss the sense of security when my hands are on your shoulders. I've had some happy moments with you. Thank you. It's really great knowing you. If I can turn back time, I would still choose what I'm going through right now, instead of erasing you from my memory. What is left to say is just goodbye. I'm hoping that one day our paths would be parallel again, without mine intersecting yours. Take care.

Love,
crazy

#My tears are turning into time I wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye-Over,Lindsay Lohan#

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

Visit To NKF dialysis centre in PJ

Went to the NKF(National Kidney Foundation) dialysis centre in Petaling Jaya today. We were actually lost and just kept going around in circles. It was after an hour of endless driving and u-turns when we finally found the place.

The place is a 2-storey bungalow with 10 dialysis machines, with the staff of 4-5 nurses and 1 doctor. There would usually be 3 patients per machine per day. The patients are divided into groups {1,3,5} and {2,4,6}. {1,3,5} means that they go to the dialysis centre on every Monday, Wednesday and Friday ; while {2,4,6} means that they go every Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday. Every session would last about 4 hours, and it's 3 times a week.

The doctor in charge(couldn't get his name, it sounded like the name of a diease that i wouldn't want to mention) was really inspiring. His did his MBBS in Mannipal and after that he did an MBA in Business Administration majoring in Health Care. He asked us to observe the patients and talk to them. Try to get a picture of what they are going through.

We went and talked to the patients. They were cheerful to have someone to talk to. I guess they were kinda bored sitting there for so long. I can imagine how it feels, strapped onto the chair for all 4 hours without moving! You just can't go anywhere with all the tubes attached to you. The TV was showing some crappy and boring pragrams, the patients didn't even looked at the TV. I guess it was just there fill the emptiness. When we first go into the room, it was quite except for the hum of the dialysis machines, the sound of the TV and the occasional chit chats between the patients and the nurses. The patients kept on emphasizing on the importance of health and how agonizing it was to lose it.

Back to the doctor, I had an inspiring lecture from him. He urged us to treat patients as a person with a disease but not just the disease itself. The are many factors involved once you become a patient, all the usual psychosocial stuff, where it's far more complicated than just giving the appropriated treatment and management. He told us that the mind actually can do wonders, in relation to what he read about in a study where 2 wards were set up. In the first ward, the doctors just do their usual rounds and leave. Whereas, in the second ward, the doctors and nurses actually tell the patients that they are getting better regardless of the state of the illness. At the end of the study, they patients in the second ward were discharged earlier than those in the first ward. The doctor at the dialysis centre actually encourages the staff to do so. I actually overheard one of the nurses commenting that the patient looked better and prettier while helping her set up the dialysis procedure. It was really wonderful to see such compassionate people. These people are the people that we need more in the healthcare sector. He is an example of who i want to be, someone who would make an effort to make a difference.

Before I end this, I shall quote what the doctor has said which meant a lot to me," Pratice medicine while trying to earn good money but not pratice medicine to earn good money."