What women say and REALLY mean....

CAN'T WE JUST BE FRIENDS?

There is no way in hell I'm going to let any part of your body touch any part of mine, again.

I JUST NEED SOME SPACE....

without you in it.

DO I LOOK FAT IN THIS DRESS?

We haven't had a fight in a while.

NO, PIZZA'S FINE....

you cheap slob!

I JUST DON'T WANT A BOYFRIEND NOW.

I just don't want you as a boyfriend now.

I DON'T KNOW, WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO?

I can't believe you have nothing planned.

COME HERE.

My puppy does this, too.

I LIKE YOU, BUT...

I don't like you.

OF COURSE I LOVE YOU....

just not in that way.

YOU NEVER LISTEN.

You never listen!

WE'RE MOVING TOO QUICKLY.

I'm not going to sleep with you until I find out if this guy at the gym has a girlfriend.

I'LL BE READY IN A MINUTE.

I'm ready, but I'm going to make you wait because I know you will.

OH, NO, I'LL PAY FOR MYSELF.

I'm just being nice; there's no way I'm going dutch.

OH YES!!! RIGHT THERE!!

Well, near there; I just want to get this over with.

I'M JUST GOING OUT WITH THE GIRLS.

We're gonna get sloppy and make fun of you and your friends.

Aww.... isn't he cute....

Taming of Le Fromage

4.41pm, Moloko-Sing It Back

Comment allez-wous? Parlez-vous francais?

It’s been 5 days since Cheeze has been back. He’s here most of his time, sleeping in his little corner with the broom, or under the car, in the drain, under the mango tree, next door, under tulip’s car….. Awww….. Sooooo cute….I somehow have a feeling that he’s getting serious--- he might be here to stay! For real?!?!?

I’ve been saying that it’s always a risky investment to put all your eggs in one basket. But this time, I am more confident to say that the prospective investment return option looks good. The secret? Expensive cat food! It’s those small RM1.00 Whiskas cat food which kept him coming back, I think. He’s eating an average of 3 packets per day, which adds up to quite a meal in Seremban. {Dear Little Squirrel: I’m sowie….. Chilli’s on me next time k? And remember to drag me there when it’s the beginning of the month, before I spent all my money on the cat food. God! I’d need to spend like RM90 per month. Ouch! Burning holes in my pocket! }

It’s a comfort, to see him there sitting in front of the door every morning, waiting impatiently, with his loud, never ending, demanding meowing whenever he sees me, to which drives Teng crazy. Hehe….. I enjoyed every moment of it, seeing Teng annoyed and pissed off but not able to say anything. And it’s just as great to come home and see him there waiting for me, well, waiting to be fed to be more exact. I felt needed. But I really have to say this, he may be a little picky, but he’s smart! And he’s showing more affections lately.

4.53pm, Madison Avenue- Don’t Call Me Baby {Oh baby, talk is cheap….}

Just now when I came back home, I felt like sh*t. But I felt better, after Cheeze ran to me, rubbed his cheeks against my legs, the way cats show their affection (actually, it’s more of a way to mark their territory/possession). I bent down to stroke him. His fur was really nice, shiny and smooth. (all thanks to the expensive cat food, I’d say. Kudos to Whiskas!)
Suddenly, I was crying. I didn’t know what happened, but I felt so much better. Yes, it’s time to let go. Time to delete the last 2 messages left in my phone. He’s not worth it, I tell myself. Just because he can’t deal with his insecurities, doesn’t mean he can just leave me hanging there. Just because he can’t handle me as an ordinary friend, this doesn’t mean that he can just brush me aside and just pick it up from where he left off whenever he felt like it. FYI: I HAVE FEELINGS YOU KNOW!!!!

5.06pm, Natalie ft. Baby Bash- Energy

I’ve caught myself calling Cheeze “Baby” so many times. Could this be real?? I'm this proud parent who kept on showing other people his picture and asking" Isn't he cute? Awww...he's a darling, isn't he?"

“Maybe some women aren’t meant to be tamed, maybe they need to run free until they find someone just as wild, to run with them.” Carrie Bradshaw, SATC, Season 2, Episode 18.

Wakey! Wakey! {i'm so gonna miss u saying tat...}

Buckle up… this is gonna be a hell of a ride…

02.10am, Howie Day- She Says

Been going through some emotional rollercoaster lately, the loop-to-loop thing is just too much. Feel like puking…. seriously…. time to get off….

The first time I set eyes on him was on the way down the staircase, between the 2nd and 3rd floor. He was climbing up, and I prancing down. I smiled, he didn’t.

*roll eyes*Geesh! What’s his problem!?!?

There he is again, alone in the corner. I kept stealing glances at him. Had to leave... Damn… would have been so cool if I hadn’t look back.

02.29am, Barbara Streisand- The way we were

We exchanged numbers, and he left in a hurry. Then it suddenly struck me, I didn’t know his name. I ran after him but he was gone. My phone rang. I smiled---- it was him.

There he was, at the end of the corridor. I smiled as he approached, and finally for the first time, he smiled back. For a moment, I felt time froze there and then. No, it went slow motion, then stopped for a split second. Finally, everything else just whizzed past.

02.45am, Our Lady Peace- Somewhere Out There

I can’t go on anymore. I feel like a fool, holding on to all these little and insignificant fragments of memories. Running them through my mind again and again. I realize I was standing out there all alone all along. Was it just me, or was it me? I wonder. I took a minute to ponder upon that question. It was only me being me.

There’s so many things that I wanted to tell him and so many questions. But yet I held them all back. Angry and frustrated, I vowed never to think of him again. But, I couldn’t. I even resorted to other pleasures, yet everything felt empty and meaningless at the end of the day. I wish he could just hold me tightly, tell me he needs me, or at least let me tell him--I need him. But I can’t. I couldn’t. After all, I’m in no position to negotiate. Neither am I entitled to any form of bargaining. The power of decision was never in my hands. Never had the right cards anyway.

02.58am, Absolute Silence

I’m tired. I hesitated, savoured every word then pressed Delete. I watched as the messages disappear forever. I watched as the screen went blank for a second. Then another, and another, and another…. This was the fun and flirty you. That was the honest you. Then another one, the apologetic you. Delete Message? Yes….

Guess it’s back to square 1.