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T-mood swings+a hint of romance=perfect boyfriend

A lot of recent unhappy events led me to realize something. The almost perfect guy is just right beside me all along, for a total of 7 years to be exact. I was too blind to see that. It would be difficult to find another guy as good as he is owing to the fact that he set the par too high up.

I was supposed to meet SSKB at the Bandar Tasik Selatan KLIA Transit station at 6.30pm but I was caught in a traffic jam so I was about 15 minutes late. He called and just told me he's on the train. I was furious! How can he leave without me?!? He even checked in without me. I was actually thinking about what T would do if he was to be in SSKB's shoes. He'd definitely wait for me, even though he'd risk missing the flight. But I can't blame SSKB. Everyone is different. There really is no definite action for what's supposed to be right or wrong. It was a split second decision for SSKB, the train came and he just hopped onto it without thinking. Easy as that.

After that incident I was totally disappointed in SSKB. Then I realize how wonderful T is. He would be the perfect guy to start a family with, which is something I don't usually think about. I don't believe in marriage. Nothing is forever(except diamonds). I do not believe in the idea of 2 people living together happily for the rest of their lives. Things change and so do people. The pain of waking up one day, and realizing that you do not love the person lying next to you or that person do not love you anymore is just unbearable. It’s not crazy. I’ve witnessed it all. But lately, there’s paradigm shift. I suddenly realize I would want a family, to find the one I can really depend on and settle down. Maybe we’ll have kids, or maybe not….. God! This is crazy!! What’s happening to me?? I’m so fucked up right now!! Hope this is not some pathetic attempt to find someone to love.

Rain

The sudden cold strong wind brought the clouds in from the west.

It hasn't rained for quite some time. I stood there waiting for the rain. Waiting for you. The rain finally came. But not you. The smell of the rain. The gentle pitter patter. It reminds me of you. I cried with the rain.

I can't remember how long it rainied. I don't know how long I've stood by the window, watching the rain. The rain washes and cleanse the my mind. Erasing you from my memory. I close my eyes. Goodbye.

The rain finally stops and i can finally sleep in peace. Goodbye.

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Good Prognosis with 0.00001% of recurrence

It's been a long time since I last saw or talked to him. I thought I'd breakdown or something but finally, I saw him today. I wasn't expecting to see him today. Really. Usually, I'd go to uni with much anticipation, only to be disappointed at the end of the day. I’ve heard about him frequently through friends. And I was actually dying to see him.

He’s where I’d least expect him to be. But there he was, just sitting there. Odd. I was rather calm. I sat down at a far corner and finished what I intended to do. Then finally, I went over and talked to him. He seemed different. Not so tensed and moody. I said Hi and asked how he was. He patted the empty chair next to him, a motion for me to sit down. He usually don’t do this to me, inviting me to sit down, I was flattered by his kind gesture. Then he started talking. Telling me how bad his day was and how he flunk his exam and had problems with his car. I freaked out when I thought he was going to cry and quickly changed the topic. I can’t and don’t know how to handle people who cry.

I felt the tranquility that I’ve never felt before. Knowing the fact that he’s actually going through a hard time. I finally felt like his friend. Not someone he’d avoid. I felt his warmth and openness. From that, I know I’ve finally moved on.